Every time I try,
To read between the lines,
and when I'm wondering why,
I'm not where I want
leaving me to my rhymes
Every time I try,
Try to rectify
all the wants,
What went wrong,
How we died,
How'd we survive,
Every time I think about,
All the time we went without,
Sorry for all we needed
Why do you doubt,
I try.
when without,
I lie.
grab a pen,
write until I die.
I'm giving up, Giving up slowly
So you can act you don't even know me
Carry on living
Cause I lost the key
So numb, so dead
No love for me
Sadly I lost my way.
You're my last shot at redemption
My life doesn't get a mention
My only chance
To get your attention
With these words
Just got to say
I gotta get out of here
Only you
Be my escape
It felt like fate
Given up, of giving up trying
When all I'm doing is dying,
never stopped trying.
Last chance, last day
Be my escape,
there' any other way
Only you can keep me to stay
Just simple words you say,
You are my escape
With all these fancy words
and sincerity
I gave my l
I work all night
One more day
That I can say
I'm all alone
Alone
Adjust my time
And I'll say what I believe
Go home
I will know
I never thought
I'd wake up in bed
Watching this world
Come down on my head
I'm not sure how,
I'll do all this again
Nothing to fight for
Already dead
This world is falling on my head
Look at me
Where am I going?
Who'm I supposed to be?
What do I believe?
Can you tell me
I just don't know
I just don't knoiw who'm I supposed to be
Look at me
Am I the image of your hopes and tragedies
Just look at me
Will I ever be more than a memory
You don't know
All I am is me
I don't want this moment to ever end
Everything is nothing without you
I wait here forever
Just to see you smile
It's true i'm nothing without you
Through it all
I've made mistakes
never letting go
Distant memories
Fall to the ground
Still nothing without you
No where to go
these words, my heart says so
I won't let go
I won't let this moment end
I want you to know
Leave the words out, let your heart show
I won't let go
I haven't been here for a while
Nothing like denial
Mother do you miss me
Father, no words to say
Just a kid with no ambitions
Never returning for the world
You never knew what i'd become
the king of all things said and done
Head bent in defeat
Still these no name streets
No regret,
no inhibitions
no laughter
just disaster
am i talking to myself?
is this in my head?
there's knowone
no regret
Can't save me,
now
I can't help it
I'm talking to the floor
While you walk to the door
Telling me you don't want me anymore
I look at the floor
Hate these days, when my life crashes to the floor
My lifes nothing more
talking to the floor
Still awkward
Life goes forward
When hearts beat slow
wishing you'd never go
In the end
Theres me
Weak as teenage poetry,
Crashing, waking up as me
Some things never change
Just gets rearranged
Over complicated
And all those things
Simple, overrated
Never should
As I never thought you would
Kinda stupid really
It's me who should
Sadly
I never would
Never see things though
Ran away
Spending the night with you?
Tomorrows another day
Have you time
For this runaway.
manic ramblings , for you by cutmeburnme, literature
Literature
manic ramblings , for you
twisting my world /
your path says/
we will go on/
try to explain/
when i am such a sucker/
i reserve for you/
pain that was mine/
all alone/
gone for mine/
together it ends/
my rejection/
still you/
still waiting/
still there/
the shadow in a world of light/
that was us/
falling/
failing/
but never the same/
let's stay/
until time stops/
where does it go/
listen to my heart/
as i will leave/
until you/
are the shadow on my heart/
but shall i go/
wait for mine/
until beat 251/
due to my loss of self/
i can go/
but will you?
heart stopper
i have nothing to live for
i have nothing to lose
i'm looking for someone
but i can't choose
i need your love
i need your support
my soul to sell to the highest bidder
dying is part of me so i'm a sinner
death wait's for me
death wait's for you
but my life
my soul
my everything
will always be for you
tick tock tick tock
still here
gone there
click , finger to the trigger
never showed
sent here
sent there
another one down
shoot. reload
shoot ,reload
then silence
now it's my turn
all for you
goodbye (the chambers empty)
what am i?
a box without key
i can only be opened by one
yet when i call , i can be as
cold as death
or as warm as life
it all depends ,
am i waiting for you?
a corpse without soul
the mind flashes
falling in the shadows
still here
lost
wanting
waiting
commiserating
still here waiting
just here lost in your mind
the mind empties
and there i am
still waiting
waiting for you
will you be there
to guide me as i fall
to want and be apart
until we meet
then you will be mine
until then
i will be who i can be
waiting
waiting for you
in the shadows
of your mind
use her abuse her
using abusing gentle little thing
using abusing little thing
wanting knowing
living loving ,
whatever way
want to know to
have to
miss you
forever here
awaiting your tender embrace
the look of your face
heaven beside you
why do i fear
until you cry
i am only here
shedding a tear
watching
waiting
for the time
to reappear
just shed
a tear
apologies( lauren im sorry)
sorry
sorry somehow
I am falling into the darkest depths of your eyes
falling
lost in a tear
I can never apologize enough
shed enough tears
just fall into your eyes
I cut
I bleed
yet, somehow ,
I cant say , so
so , sorry
I bleed for you
I die for you
I am falling to the shadows
knowing
failing
loving
losing
all I feel
now all are lost
all for you , until I breathe my last
will be for you
sorry somehow
until ,
until I can
be the man you want me to be
I fall to the shadows
and bleed
from a rose to the heart
I dont deserve
and yet
the pain you feel
hurts
wo
2+2=U / tell me
wish i was there
i'm sure i was here
somehow i was
but soon enough i fade
look into those eyes
and see
just who
we used to be
all i need to know
who am i
who do i need to be
was i there
tell me?
all those things
you said to me
I dont know why
but they meant something to me
I dont know why
but please tell me
all those things, they saved me,
one day,
im sure ill be free
I really am not an artist, i'm a writer/inking lover ( I want another 2 tattoo's before may this year)
drop me a line if you want to be complimented in many odd ways
Current Residence: uk Favourite genre of music: music Operating System: mac os x MP3 player of choice: i pod Wallpaper of choice: well one that reflects my moods, so one that preferably changes every couple of hours Skin of choice: well it's quite fair, and soft, and gentle, and very lightly tanned Personal Quote: life is not worth living, unless it's for someone else(this is for everyone I have failed)
Favourite Movies
pulp fiction, resevoir dogs, atm
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
REM, well, clever lyrics
Favourite Writers
Oscar wilde
Favourite Games
the ones where, I let you choose, and then I subtly let you win
Favourite Gaming Platform
I don't have time for games
Tools of the Trade
words, imagination, and a warped sense of humor and love
well it's been a hell of a year, and now I need one big piece of help, I need to add work to my portfolio, so any suggestions, or requests?
and for the record the uni i'm applying to is Anglia Ruskin university
so far i've done an extension of one of my personal favorite short stories( the nightingale and the rose ,by Oscar Wilde)
the best suggestions will be guaranteed a p[lace in my portfolio, well once i'm pleased witht he final result.
thanks all, and it's been almost four years in the making but I may finally be getting into uni, woop woop, about time
xD
a hell of a lots happened, since, I last took a break from devart, well, I was a dad for a period of time, lost all of my money, several times, attempted to write, ended up writing on walls, struggled to write, designed a shirt, and now started ot write this journal, well It's been an age, I just hope you have all not missed me much.
I had my chest piece but I need a decent photographer to take a shot of it, to give it full justice.
So anyone fancy giving me a shout about what's up, and if anyone wants anything written for them?, I need to have an excuse to write again.
peace out all, I'm not dead yet, so drop me a line if you want anythin
yeah, it's been a while.
I just want to know, who is really reading these journals, as i'm starting to believe that there is no reason to me being on here.
oh thats over and done with.
well, i'm scared to be honest, mainly because i'm officially bankrupt( through no fault of my own), a person seems to have hacked my paypal account, and as such, spent, almost £1500 GBP, yeah, pretty much my entire debit account.
so yeah, after several phone calls, which would be pointless posting up here( too many blurs/symbols used instead of actual letters), i've been declined any refund ,be it part or full.
so anyone got any good news?